Wow it has been a while... Not neglecting the blog, just been UBER busy. My trip to St. Louis was... umm draining. Vivian is cutting teeth and was quite vocal about it on many occassions during the drive *sigh* On top of this she doesnt like to eat much when her gums are sore (cant blame her!) So it was a loud drive to say the least.
My Dads health is becoming worse and it scares me. Watching your Daddy, your HERO.. the guy you adore and thought nothing could EVER harm him become so weak and disoriented is truly heart breaking. He has althzeimers and Parkinsons. Both are progressing rapidly, and although I try very hard to speak the wor dinto both him and my Mother they just arent in a place to truly ecieve it the way they need to i fear.. so I pay, multiple times daily for them to finally get it. My Dad is not himself anymore. We had to watch him closer than I do my 2 yr old Son. He tries to sneak off out of the house, which is scary enough, but with them living in the middle of St. Louis City it is even worse. He imagines things and talks like they are real.. its so sad. :*(
In other more upbeat news, Doug is finally home. He met up with us in St. louis and we drove home together (in seperate cars). Imvery glad to have him home but it seems like we just havent had a chance to really reocnnect yet. His week back to work has been hard in the heat again. He is pretty exhausted each day when he gets home and I have been playing catch up witht he house so it has been really hard for us to even have any talk time. We hope to change that this weekend at some point with a date night. We'll see.
I have a lot on my mind as far as decisions to make in moving forward. Avoiding confrontation is not normally my cup of tea, and at this point I cant avoid it any longer. I honestly havent avoided it, just been distancing myself but now after sitting down over the situation I thought I would feel better but im very confused as to where to move forward with it. i know what is in my heart.. I just cant imagine cutting all ties with either side of this situation... so Im very much hurting today. It doesnt help that i woke up with a fever this morning and my ears feel like I have cotton stuffed in them and my throat is on fire. Im sure it is either a sinus or ear infection.. lovely. *grumble* Im HEALED in Jesus name. PERIOD!
OK Ive rambled on long enough. Have a great Friday all.
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Karen - Please know you are loved by many who have you and your family in thier prayers for your speedy recovery and resolutions to the things you are facing. God is always there even when we can't feel him or even recognize his voice. Use the Holy Spirit inside you as your guide, spend some quiet time praying in the spirit as your time allows.
Thanks Kari, it can all be complicated but as long as I am trusting God and using the HOly Spirit inside of me I know all will turn out for good.
You are missed!
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